I’m writing this because I need to take note. I need to remember and recognize the importance and significance of three signs in one day.
Pretty much everyone who knows me knows that I’ve been traveling quite a lot these last fifteen years or so. After a lifetime of living in one state–mostly in one county, even–I moved across the country… and then I didn’t stop moving!
Recently, after one and half years back in Santa Fe, I’ve been feeling that nagging sensation that it’s time to move again. Then, a month or so ago, I suddenly got very clear that the home I’ve been living in was not working for me. I just knew I needed to be in a different home. I just didn’t know where it would be.
Interestingly, once I got clear that I needed to move, the very next day, on an afternoon walk, I saw a tiny house on wheels sitting next to the neighborhood greenbelt. I took the risk of peaking in the uncurtained windows. It was empty! I came back later intending to put a sign on the door asking if it was for sale when I happened upon a woman who was a neighbor to the owner of the house. It was indeed for sale! Long story short, I was given permission to look inside. I got all excited about it (though it wasn’t exactly what I was looking for) and called my brother to ask his advice. I showed him photos of it and he saw some problems with the way it was built. And so I let go of this particular home and went back to my metaphoric drawing board.
Tiny home in Madrid. Still for sale!
I was filled with indecision. I felt I was “supposed to” move or travel, but I didn’t know any details. And things were further complicated by two factors: 1) we are obviously smack dab in the middle of a pandemic and it would be challenging to find anyone willing to share a home at this particular time, and 2) in what has sadly been the norm for me all too often, I didn’t have enough money to rent an apartment, let alone come up with the usual two months’ worth of deposits.
Of course, this has never stopped me before. All manner of miraculous places and opportunities can become available when one believes in them! After all, I’ve never been out on the streets. (Although there were a couple of days a few years ago when I didn’t know where I’d be staying that night. But miracles unfolded! And that’s another story.)
A few weeks ago I was sure I’d found a solution. An elder woman had finally decided to accept the assistance she so badly needed. She invited me to move into her guest room (in a wonderful house with an amazing view over Santa Fe) and I began doing what needed to be done to help her recover from her falls, bring in medical equipment, feed her properly, assist her with walking, take care of her home, etc. During one of our many conversations, she asked to look at my book, reported that I was a wonderful writer, and led me to believe that I would be allowed to live in her guest quarters downstairs while I completed my next book. This would have been an absolutely incredible opportunity. But sadly, a couple days later she did something rather cruel and manipulative and I realized I couldn’t live in a place where I was so disrespected. (I had been warned by two friends that she was very manipulative, but I felt I needed to discover that for myself. And so I did.)
Back to the drawing board.
A few days ago, the woman in whose casita I’d been staying told me that she wanted to fix up the house and prepare it for rental. I told her I’d be out within a week. I was actually relieved to have made this decision and to have my move expedited, but I still wasn’t exactly sure where I’d go. I came up with a tentative plan and then I scheduled a reading with an old friend to see if I could get some clear guidance from Spirit.
That reading was today. But first let me tell you how the day started out. I had a dream.
There is a woman, a singer who is starting to become popular and successful. (She reminds me of Jennifer Lopez.) After a little bit of discussion with her girlfriend, she decides she is ready to take a big leap. She is going to buy an expensive home for her and her daughter. And she doesn’t even discuss it with her boyfriend, she just takes the leap.
The home costs about a million dollars. It doesn’t stand alone but is on the upper floor of a large building which holds many other residences. Her place is on the corner. There are no walls or ceilings or inner fixtures of any kind. I realize this means she gets to design and create it exactly as she wants it. But what I notice and really appreciate are the incredible views. There is a beautiful meandering stream below, near the building. And outside what will surely be a great window, I see mountains not too far away, and I know that between them, lying beneath the fog and clouds, is an ocean.
I am so thrilled for her. Three of my favorite things: streams, mountains, and ocean!
Because I know that most of the characters in a dream represent myself, I take this dream as a really good omen. I am becoming more successful and I will be able to create a wonderful home in a beautiful location.
Significant thing #2. I am sitting outside at a table, relaxing in the morning sun, playing a word game on my phone. I hear a buzzing and look around. It’s the first hummingbird of the year! She darts into the courtyard over the top of the gate, even though there are no flowers, trees, or bright colors in the courtyard! She goes straight to the corner of one of the windows where there happens to be a cobweb. She looks like she is pecking at the cobweb, and knowing that in addition to nectar, hummingbirds also eat insects and spiders, I assumed she was trying to eat something that was caught in the web. Then when she flew away, my guess was that she didn’t want to get caught in the web. (I had a dream once where a hummingbird was caught in a web.) There is more to this story, but first I need to tell you about the reading.
Significant thing #3. I had my reading with Jean. As sometimes happens, the image she received for me was not a very pleasant one. In fact it was extremely unpleasant. And, my resistance came up. But Jean gently persisted in explaining the image and working around my resistance. Eventually we got to some of my questions and Jean said that they (the spirits) were suggesting that perhaps it would be good for me to set down some roots. I was again resistant. I do, actually, very much want a cottage or casita of my own at some point. I can even picture it quite clearly. But I simply “have the feeling” that more travel is in my more immediate future. Jean acknowledged that I was “like a bird which loves freedom,” and, she wisely added, “Even an eagle needs a nest.”
Oh! That was the perfect thing to say! At last I really understood. I could travel, but it was important to have a home base, a nest.
Now, back to the hummingbird and the cobweb. A new Facebook friend, Rahima, remarking upon my experience with the hummingbird today, said that hummingbirds use cobwebs for their nest!
Oh, oh, oh! That little comment lit up my heart! I suddenly became aware that I had received three messages today about building, buying, or creating my own nest. And what’s especially fascinating, I think, is that I received messages about both the largest and the tiniest of bird nests. Maybe I’m meant to have both a big and a tiny home!
I’ve been dreaming about tiny houses for a few years. I keep fine-tuning and refining the details of the tiny home I want to live in and travel in. In fact, here is a sketch I did on April 18th of one inside scene of a tiny house of my dreams.
But I remain open to a magnificent home with astounding views as well.
May my perfect nest be built in this nesting season.